05 December 2015

Horsforth

It has been about a year and a half so its high time to say something about the neighbourhood. Our experience of living in the North has some similarities with living in suburban Providence. This feeling probably comes from the relative lack of public transport as compared to Greater London, which has made us more reliant on our car.

So the area is called Horsforth, named for the convenient horse crossing on the River Aire. It has been around since at least 1086 because it is in the Domesday Book. One of the most distinct features of our block of flats is that it surrounds ruins of a old corn mill that was built in the late 1700’s (so yeah, not exactly old). Just down the hill, only a short walk away is our local pub, The Bridge. They are good about having local guest ales, and not always IPAs, which I consider a plus. They have decent pies but I am partial to the giant Yorkshire pudding filled with mash and gravy (so yes, I have reconciled with the savoury crust).

On most Sundays, I walk 20 minutes up the hill to St Margarets, which was built in the late 1800s (again not very old). And on my way I pass through the centre of the old village: Town Street. Krista Tippet and her various guests usually accompany me by headphone on my walks to and from church. Although I walk on Sundays, in true commuter fashion, any trips to Town street in the week are by car.

Oh, how could I almost forget the fantastic Chinese takeaway across the street, for shame.

Yorkshire people are very friendly. It is the kind of place that people will just strike up a conversation with you. And the best thing is it sounds like this!

Photo Credits

Cornmill Fold: Leodis.net

The Bridge: Geolocation.ws

St Margaret's: Yorkshirelife.co.uk

Town Street: Geolocation.ws

Jade Unicorn: Yelp.co.uk


25 October 2015

'On Being' and my spiritual rebirth

Several years ago, it may have been in 2010, my best friend sent me a link to a conversation between John O'Donohue and Krista Tippett. It is an amazing conversation. The essence of it reminded me so much of conversations I used to have with this very same friend as it revived me, replenished me, reenergised me.

So I listened to more of Tippett's work, and it has been a wonderful experience. She approaches her work with an integrity and reverence that is so missing from the devoid-of-any-deliberation double speak that usually passes for journalism. But her real gift is to draw out echoes of a world I wish I lived in.

I recently had the joy of relistening to that conversation between O'Donohue and Tippett. For me, it is magical. And since that time, through my regular exposure to TIppett and her guests, I have been able to reclaim the infinite vastness in words like spirit, soul, and god again.

Prior to Tippett, I allowed these ideas to be hijacked by those who would hang overly simplistic definitions on them. Many of these hijackers are very loud and claim that their own very small, superficial, rigid and confining views are equivalent to god's. I used to believe the hijackers. But now, thanks to Tippett, I have the courage not only to realise that I can use my gifts of wit and reason to expose the hijackers as delusional people trying to wield power over others through the institution of religion but also to reclaim the language they have taken from me.

We cannot allow the vastness of the potential for terms like god, soul, and spirit to be commandeered by the small minded who wish to wield power over others. To do so is to miss an opportunity to grow into the huge potential that is humanity. In the past, I was willing to cede these terms. In the past, I was uncomfortable in claiming these terms for fear of being lumped in with the power hungry people who tend to abuse them and wield them as weapons.

People who want to hold power over others conveniently fit god, spirit, and soul into inflexible models that can be defined within the limits of language and intellect. To allow these concepts to be larger than language and intellect would be to yield control. Control is all the power hungry are interested in: Follow only their rules. Believe only their interpretation. Take this sentence literally, but not that other sentence. This writing is god, and that writing is not. Taking liberties with something from O'Donohue's conversation: I can wholeheartedly reject the delusional people who think their ideas are equivalent to god's without discarding the wealth of human wisdom contained in our religious traditions.

When religion becomes about separating 'us' from 'them', it becomes a bane on our humanity. When religion refuses to acknowledge verifiable fact, it becomes a perversion of our humanity. For me, Tippett's conversations search for the beauty of the human spirit often with religious wisdom as a conduit, which is ultimately more the point, I think. These conversations resonate with something that I feel like I already know deep inside me or maybe it is something that is deep in the social fabric that lies at the foundations of humanity. I cannot put words to it. Language is too confining to describe it. And this notion is one that exists within our religious traditions, a notion that is useful still, perhaps even more now than ever before.

Photo Credits (of stuff I saw on the way to other stuff)

Shrub:  Me on the way back from church (Horsforth March 2015)

Hyde Park Treetops:  Me on way back from work (Leeds March 2015)

Ice on windscreen:  Me before scraping (Horsforth January 2015)

13 September 2015

Skipton


So the other weekend, my beloved and I went to Skipton Castle, less than an hours drive from home.  Usually when I'm at a medieval castle, all that's there is the outer walls, but this one has lots of the interior rooms still intact.  There are a few slight modifications here and there, but you can definitely get a feel for the medieval logistics. Look at me saying "Usually when I'm at a medieval castle." Well, I never tire of seeing old stuff. That is Anglo-Norman French on top of the gatehouse (left).  Well, OK, it's not Roman, but medieval is still kind of oldish.

I also saw my first Anchorhold in Skipton. They have one in the Holy Trinity Church just outside the castle. Anchorites were bricked into their cells so that they can "lead a Eucharist-focused life". This is my first so I couldn't say what they usually have, but according to Wikipedia (the font of all digital human knowledge) there was often a funeral like ritual as the person entered the cell, and the Anchorite received the Eucharist from a small window facing inside the church and food through an outward facing window.








Photo Credits

Gatehouse: My beloved

Conduit Court: My beloved

Anchorhold: Wikipedia

10 August 2015

Surrey Wedding

So a couple of weeks ago, we got to experience two firsts.  We stayed in a pub for the first time and we went to our first UK wedding.  Both members of my blog audience may recall Dante from our trip to Lisbon (future coauthors beware!)  I had an incredibly wonderful time at the wedding and enjoyed reconnecting with the wonderful and hospitable people that are Dante's family.

09 July 2015

Citizen

Today I became a British Citizen.  About a minute later, my beloved became one too.  I always suspected she wanted a British husband...
...and I got a commemorative mug too.
God save the Queen!

28 June 2015

Job 2014

My current job is in an acute setting, which means I am working with people immediately after their injury. All of my previous experience has been with people who have moved beyond the acute stage. I have of course always been aware of acute settings, but awareness is very different from experience, and this experience has filled a huge gap in my professional life that has forever changed me for the better.

I am working in the Occupational Therapy for Neurosciences department, which sees people with neurological conditions such as Motor Neurone Disease and Parkinson's Disease as well as people requiring brain or spinal surgery such as to remove tumours, after a fall, or after a road traffic collision. It is shocking to see the sheer volume of falls and accidents leading to devastating brain and spinal injuries that are alcohol related. I feel like if ordinary people saw what I see everyday, they would be much more cautious about how much alcohol they consume.

In an acute setting, medical stability is the foremost priority. Once the clients are stable, they are discharged and then a new client comes in. So my interaction with most people is fairly brief. Occasionally, I even get to go to people's homes and set up equipment. And if the person is heading for rehab, I might get to have a session or two to get them ready for the more intense rehab they will get later.

I am often seeing people before they have had a chance to adjust to their new circumstances. And I saw more post traumatic amnesia in the first month of this job than I have seen in previous ten years. The work is fast paced and I rarely see the end result. But I can see the benefit of what I am doing in a more abstract sense, and I am pleased for the opportunity to contribute to my community in this way.

Photo Credits

Surgical Videos of the Brian and Nerves

Bath Aids

07 June 2015

The Me I Wish I Was


My recent NHS post is completely true, but part of me wanted to moan about the challenges I am facing. I usually wait to write about struggles until I have had time to digest it and see the bigger picture.   But I thought it might be useful to admit in this very public space that I do in fact struggle with things.  So I am going to give it a try.

It has been helpful to reflect back on how I initially saw going full time in the technology service post as a negative, and it turned out to be the most professionally productive I have ever been.


It is completely unfair to compare my current job, which I have only had for a few months, to the longest job I ever had. A more fair comparison is the current job to when I was just a few months into the old job. But that memory of the start of that job is cloudy. Much clearer is my memory of working at my peak performance at the end.

I am writing this post to remind myself that I need to be brave, and I need to be patient. It took years to get my footing in the old job, and it all happened very gradually. But even when reflecting, I cannot help missing the most amazing team that anyone could hope to work in. It was so much easier to become a better version of myself when I was surrounded by an inspiring team whose members were constantly nurturing each other's potential. I wish I had the strength be the kind of person I was with them, now.

Photo Credit

Foothold

10 May 2015

The Panicwich of 2015


A couple days ago there was only half the usual amount of chicken left for my wife's lunch sandwich so I made it half chicken and half ham. Before the sandwich making was over, we were both running around the kitchen with arms waving wildly overhead to match the apparent gravity of the situation. I really had no idea of the enormity of this abomination.

Photo Credit

Sugar Mountain Farm

26 April 2015

Journey Interru... oh wait, never mind

Yesterday, my beloved and I were driving to meet up with friends.  We were on a dual carriageway, and on the other side, my beloved spotted a grey haired man getting up off the ground.  He had a little tiny dog on a leash.  Presumably he fell whilst walking the dog.  We were coming up to a roundabout, so we turned back to go see if the man was alright.  We were there in less than two minutes.  In the time that it took to get there, three other drivers had already pulled up to check on the man.  I decided not to stop as there was more than enough help there already.  By the time we got back to the other side to resume our journey, the man was walking his dog resuming his.  I am so glad I live in a place were people will stop to help a stranger.

Photo Credit

Shire of Chittering

11 April 2015

Three Hours at the Cross, Yorkminster

All three of my regular readers will know by now that Good Friday is my favourite holy day. This year I attended Three Hours at the Cross in Yorkminster. The service split Chapter 15 of The Book of Mark into six sections, and six clergy preached on the section s/he read. After each sermon, an organ improvisation was played followed by mediative silence, after which the preacher offered a prayer, and we sung a hymn accompanied by the organ.

Having heard the gospels so many times over the decades, sometimes my ears no longer hear what is there. The Very Reverend Doctor Vivienne Faull preached on the soldiers mocking Jesus (Mark15:16-20), and she opened my mind to how this scene might speak to our time. My ears do hear news of war much too frequently, but on this Good Friday, Faull instead brought me stories told by individual soldiers.

One was from a soldier returning home to loving family and friends. Yet, he still felt alone trying to cope with the nightmare of war, separated from the only human beings who truly understood the experience he had suffered through. Another was by a soldier who after killing a deadly sniper was overcome with remorse, cried out for forgiveness, and vomited all over himself, not exactly the image of warfare shown in cinema. After hearing these and other stories, we reconsidered the Mark's scene from the Roman soldier's point of view: What parts of the empire were they from? How long had they been away from their loved ones? What had they witnessed that had perhaps challenged their perception of their role in humanity? Had any of them lost comrades-in-arms in the Judean revolts going on at the time? I came away struck by the contrast between the disconnected one-dimensional images that we project onto our soldiers and the individuals we trap behind these images of false bravado. I feel that Faull fostered an attitude of compassion toward our returning soldier's' plights and through the conduit of Mark 15:16-20 made that compassion a holy pursuit.

Then Reverend Canon Michael Smith preached the crucifixion (Mark 15:21-23). If Faull pried open my deaf ears, Smith fired a cannon. He used a powerful analogy that suggested we were crucifying God again and again whenever we place our small-minded limitations on God through doctrine, dogma, and especially when we used religion to reinforce our own bigotry and self-serving political aims.

My translation of Smith's reflection is that Christianity is meant to be a transformative and disruptive experience. Smith reminded me that no one, not me, not Smith, not the Archbishop, not the Pope, not the Bible can contain the infinite vastness of God and that it is a constant effort just to remember that. I ache to transcend the boundaries of my own limitations so that I can see all people in a way that I can only hope to imagine that God sees us. I fail every day, but Smith's reflection encourages me to try again tomorrow.

The image of a suffering deity is a powerful one, and much needed. Some of the preachers could not resist moving ahead to the victory of Easter in their sermons. It is no surprise because our culture is obsessed with victory and success. But for me, this one day is an opportunity to contemplate what we will do when in those inevitable times in our lives when victory is not possible. For me, this is the point of religious adherence. Art no doubt can shine a light here too, but not everyone lives with the privilege of ready access to art. And even when we do, we tend to self indulge rather than examine our own limitations.

Good Friday reminds me that there are harder things than the ones I am facing. It reminds me I live an abundant and luxurious life. It reminds me that when I soften my heart to the suffering of others, I am presented with the beautiful possibility of easing the burden of another like Simon of Cyrene did (Mark15:21), rather of just waiting for someone else to do relieve the burden (Mark15:36) or profiting from the burden (Mark15:24).

Photo Credit:

Arka Pana Crucifix

23 March 2015

Working for the NHS

For a few months in 2008, I had the pleasure of working for the National Health Service (NHS) as a locum. For those who don't know, a locum is an agency worker, often covering a temporary staff shortage for a few weeks or months. But I have never worked directly for the NHS.

As with most British institutions, it is a simultaneously loved and the subject of harsh criticism for it's imperfections. As a foreigner who has much to be grateful for, I view my recent joining the ranks of the NHS as a way to say thank you to a country that has been so very good to me.

With the nearly constant stream of criticism that the press aims at the NHS, I was bracing myself for an atmosphere of carelessness and detachment , but I am happy to report that I am surrounded by extremely passionate and dedicated professionals who are working long and hard to provide a topnotch service despite being understaffed and under resourced. I am extremely proud to be in the NHS and hope my presence will contribute to people's lives in a positive way.

Photo Credit

NHS Logo: Basildon Healthcare

1948 Leaflet: Wikipedia

01 March 2015

Driving v Train

I have never been a big fan of driving. I got a car when we moved out here because nearly every job I applied for was community based and required that I had a car. As it turned out, I got a hospital based job. Although I occasionally go out to people's homes, the job does not require that I have a car. Because my beloved is an early career academic, we could be on the move at any moment, so it seems sensible to keep the car as it significantly increases my future job prospects. So I am driving to and from work.

Fortunately, our flat comes with a parking space. But there is a problem at the other end. We both working in the centre of the Leeds and parking is not free. But I did manage to find a questionable neighbourhood about a mile and a half from work that has unpermitted parking, so I walk in from there. So I managed to circumvent a significant potential expense.

I think what I miss most about the train is the downtime it created.  I used to read, write, and listen to podcasts on the train. It was great.  See, when I am driving, I have to pay attention. And although I am much better than I was, I still need to be more attentive as the signage and the directions and angles that moving obstacles such as pedestrians, cyclists, and other vehicles appear to my sensibility to be in unexpected places.  Not only do we drive on the left side in England, but the cars are also right hand drive, which puts the bulk of the vehicle to your left instead of to your right. For me, it makes judging exactly where the vehicle is in space a bit more conscious and less automatic. Also, in general, the roads are much narrower and the other drivers have a certain level of comfort with getting real close to other vehicles when passing that I just do not have. With all that going on, even listening to the radio can be a bit too distracting for me in city traffic. It was also quite nice in the train that someone else was paying attention of getting safely from A to B.

I really miss my downtime. Driving has really cut into my reading, writing, and podcast listening.

One nice thing about the car is that we live five minutes drive from some nice country roads, and the wife and I will often go on a Sunday drive. These pictures are from those. While I'd hire a car in a heartbeat to drive to Stratford-upon-Avon or London for a weekend, I doubt I would do so for a 40 minute drive. So the Sunday drive is definitely an advantage in the car's favour.

Photo Credits

My beloved wife

31 January 2015

Get a job!

Over seven years ago when we arrived on these shores, I found a job in two interviews in less than two weeks. That experience misled me to believe I could repeat that performance at any time. I lost track of the number of interviews I got in 3 months. While it was fantastic to have that much interest, it was still incredibly stressful being unemployed in a society where worthiness is measured by price tags and purchasing power. How easily self worth slips away with net worth. I wish I could hold onto that feeling of just getting a new job. I am so grateful, and I am at my best when I am in the midst of sincere gratitude, which is a challenge to maintain amidst adverts (sometimes disguised as news) that encourage us to covet and to fear. How quickly my confidence fled when I joined the ranks of the unemployed, the discarded scourge of civilisation. It sure feels good to be back in employment.

Photo Credits

Bobby & Luanne: car-memes.com

Employed: extrapetitemom.blogspot.com

06 January 2015

Epiphany: not a stop on the Red Line

I think it was 1991. At the time that it happened, I did not connect this experience with the divine, but there was no doubt of its transcendence. It was a Saturday. I was taking the above ground portion of the Red Line after visiting a very generous friend. We watched Bill & Ted's Excellent Adventure on laser disc. I got on the train and sat on the left side of the car. I looked over at the only other passenger, a shabbily dressed man. It was sunset. Imperceptibly, my presence expanded through the things touched by the rays of the setting sun: starting with me, then the man, and the car, and the rest of the train, and the trees next to the tracks, and the buildings beyond them, and the water beyond that, and through to the sun itself… until, with the rays shining in every direction, I was one with the universe beyond. It all happened in less than an instant, and just like that, I could sense everything altogether and at once. There was no transition: I was in the train, I was everywhere, I was back in the train. But there was a residual, a benevolent residual. I could remember being everywhere. It was so beautiful. The residual was quite strong at first. I was beaming with joy, and I felt very connected with my fellow passenger. It was like a half life kind of thing… each minute, the residual was half the strength of what it was the minute before. And although in the din of day-to-day activities I can easily forget that this epiphany is part of me, it is there even decades later. Because even though it is continuing to weaken by half with each passing minute, it will never entirely disappear.

It only occurred to me quite recently that what I mean when I say divine is more along the lines of this experience on the Red Line than it is about some easy to articulate set of assertions that comes nowhere near the impossible to describe wonder that is our sentience. In this experience, I did not find myself in the midst of an all-knowing, all-powerful entity.  It was more like a fantastic, magnificent, mysterious, uncertain, powerlessness reaching far beyond the concept of entity. It may have been God.

Photo Credits

BIll & Ted: Flash Bang Movie Reviews

The Red LIne near Dorchester: BHP Development

Botticelli's Adoration of the Magi: ChurchYear.Net